Saturday, December 26, 2009


I slowly opened my was blurry and almost everything looked white.I guess i just had a long napped with no memory innit. At the corner of my bed, i saw someone was lying lifelessly.He looked pale n exhausted. My heart was thumping hard as if i knew this guy from d'past. Was he the guardian of my solitude days?..tsk tsk..Wait, i recognized his face but it came to grief wen i cudn't recall anything perfectly.i wonder why did i have a good feeling about him and why did he look so familiar? ...suddenly, a voice broke the silence exclaimed that i've been conscious from a coma..oh! i was half dead previously? ..i tried to make a pace but my movement was slow.*sigh* i need to know what day is today... Ive got to stimulate all my nerves and so i walked...I searched fr a calendar and i found dat today is 24th December 09.i felt so relieved.What a beautiful day to feel alive again...what has been happening to me? why didn't i remember anything but i felt pain in d'heart? did somebody stab my heart and let me in d woebegone misery? Sth caught my eyes on the notice board.It stated "Fatrisha has been coma since Sunday,5th july 2009 till Wednesday,23rd December 2009.Thursday,24th December 2009 - The awakening" .GOSH! what a long period to sleep..but,there's tiny feeling of devastated.My mind has deteriorated.i cudn't recall much n it led me to despair.The worst part is i still feel d pain in the heart.Who did this? ferocious that person was!....I startled when 'The guy from the past' tapped on my shoulder.I gazed into his eyes searching for a clue.He smiled n blurted out '' i saved you... '' ..tears started welling my eyes.He randomly checked on his shirt pocket and sth came out.He hand it to me,its a love necklace..."This is a gift for you because of surviving."his voice trembled....the scene baffled me completely.he was murmuring sth that i hardly to hear and suddenly he uttered out his name..very familiar!...i started to sob like a child....finally,i remember the name who saved me,but i couldnt remember the name who had murdered me..urm murdered? i dunno what a better word to rephrase....then,the word BITCH pop-up on my mind,followed by the thought of an outmoded blonde kid..who's she?...but the face was blur and distorted.....fuck.that must have sth to do with my past!....i tried to remember more...a big white bear on the building came next...i cried..i walked to my bed and contemplated over things but i failed to remember an important clue....maybe god doesn't want me to dig out what has happened previously. it must be tragic incident or maybe a beautiful journey but full with obstacles..i don't, im reborn fatrisha that aged 24 years old.i live again.Let bygones be bygones.I don't want to remember coz im pretty sure its sad story.i petrify.


it takes time to tame a wild cat.coerce me makes the situation harder.patience do wonder.better stay or never cz my heart grows fonder.You said, never say never and i'm a believer.yeah love is blind dear lover but dun be a blinder.u cast a love spell on me being together forever but u never ponder when u spilled out it's over. now, the wild cat has grieved over the love matter. so i ask u over and over, what do u prefer? be my lover or forever hater? tame the wild cat with pamper or let it wild with cud be my heart saviour or heart breaker .think wiser my dear lover.think! =]

p.s : i <3 you. never doubt.
1.4.3. just dwell on my mind.=x

Friday, October 9, 2009

Fair Fight Gudeline =)

# “Remember the point of the fight is to reach a solution, not to win, be right, or make your partner wrong.”Remember the point of the fight is to reach a solution, not to win, be right, or make your partner wrong.

# Don't try to mind read. Ask instead what he or she is thinking.

# Don't bring up all the prior problems that relate to this one. Leave the past in the past; keep this about one recent problem. Solve one thing at a time.

# Keep the process simple. State the problem, suggest some alternatives, and choose a solution together.

# Don't talk too much at once. Keep your statements to two or three sentences. Your partner will not be able to grasp more than that.

# Give your partner a chance to respond and to suggest options.

# Practice equality. If something is important enough to one of you, it will inevitably be important to both of you, so honor your partner's need to solve a problem.

# Ask and Answer questions directly. Again, keep it as simple as possible. Let your partner know you hear him or her.

# State your problem as a request, not a demand. To make it a positive request, use "I messages" and "please".

# Don't use power struggle tactics: guilt and obligation, threats and emotional blackmail, courtroom logic: peacekeeping, sacrificing, or hammering away are off limits.

# Know your facts: If you're going to fight for something, know the facts about the problem: Do research, find out what options are available, and know how you feel and what would solve the problem for you.

# Ask for changes in behavior, don't criticize character, ethics or morals.

# Don't fight over who's right or wrong. Opinions are opinions, and that won't solve the problem. Instead, focus on what will work.

# Ask your partner if he or she has anything to add to the discussion. "Is there anything else we need to discuss now?"
“Don't guess what your partner is thinking or feeling. Instead, ask. "What do you think?" Or "How do you feel about it?"”
Don't guess what your partner is thinking or feeling. Instead, ask. "What do you think?" Or "How do you feel about it?"

# Hold hands, look at each other, and remember you're partners.

# If you're angry, express it calmly. "I'm angry about ..." There's no need for drama, and it won't get you what you want. Anger is satisfied by being acknowledged, and by creating change. Anger is a normal emotion -- rage is phony, it's drama created by not taking care of yourself.

# Acknowledged and honor your partner's feelings -- don't deflect them, laugh at them or freak out. They're only feelings, and they subside when respected, heard and honored.

# Listen with your whole self. Paraphrase what your partner says; check to see if you understand by repeating what is said. "So you are angry because you think I ignored you. Is that right?"

# No personal attacks or criticism. Focus on solving the problem.

# If you want to let off steam (vent), ask permission or take a time out. Handle your excess emotion or energy by being active (run, walk, hit a pillow,) writing, or talking to someone who is not part of the problem. Don't direct it personally at anyone. You can't vent and solve problems at the same time.

# Don't try to solve a problem if you're impaired: tired, hungry, drunk or unstable.

# Surrender to your responsibility. When you become aware that you have made a mistake, admit it, and apologize. Use it as an opportunity to learn and grow.

Saturday, June 13, 2009


-From article-
Don't. Call. Me. Ever. Again. Who among us hasn't uttered these five words to a boyfriend in the heat of a breakup? But you may find yourself missing the guy and wondering if things could have been different. Your ex is familiar territory, but is it a country that you should consider revisiting?

Should You Get Back Together?
There are some circumstances under which you should never try and reunite with an ex. If he was abusive toward you, either physically or verbally, it's a no-brainer: don't get back together.

If there was cheating involved, ask yourself if you can truly trust him again. If you can put the incident in the past—fine. But if you'll be checking his e-mail and searching his coat pockets for credit card receipts, that's a big red flag that you shouldn't rekindle things.

Sometimes a relationship ends due to circumstances. Maybe one of you had to take a job in a different city or the timing just wasn't right. "Ask yourself if there are more benefits to trying than not trying," says Paget. "But don't let regret be the sole driving force."

For some women, getting back together with an ex is like slipping on a pair of sweat pants—it's easy and feels natural. But that doesn't mean getting back together is the right thing to do.With months or years of distance since you broke up, it's easy to see the relationship through rose-colored glasses. Make sure that you remind yourself not just about the good things, but also of the reasons things turned rocky.

"Take responsibility for your role in the break up. Think about how you have evolved and [if you're considering renewing the relationship] how you can now be a better partner.

Six Steps To Winning Him Back

Once you've decided that your reasons for getting back together are sound, here's how to proceed.

1. Run it by the girls.
"Ask your closest friends if they think it's a good idea," says Paget. "They have only your best interests in mind and will tell you if this partner treated you the way you should be treated."

2. Listen to your instincts.
Paget says to "Pay attention to your little voice warnings and your reactions—they don't lie." Getting back together with your ex might feel like an easy solution in the moment, but if your heart and head are not in it, you're just prolonging disaster.

3. Call him.
"I tried to get back with my high school ex a few years ago," says Clarissa, 28. "He had been through a divorce and I was also going through a tough period and since we'd known each other for so long, it was just really comfortable."
When Clarissa wanted her high school hottie back, she simply pulled out her cell phone. "One day after not having any contact for five years I decided to try and get a hold of him." She got his cell phone number from a mutual friend and just dialed. "I'm sometimes still shocked at myself for doing it!" she says.

But not all reunions end in romance. "After six months together, I decided to move to Europe. Rather than being upset he supported me 100 percent," says Clarissa. "We ended up meeting other people but I'm glad to say he's now one of my best friends. I'm glad that I tried to get him back otherwise I wouldn't have such a great friend in my life!"

4. Plan a daytime rendezvous—and don't have sex right away.
Resist the urge to go for drinks at your fave after-hours lounge and do lunch instead. "Don't get horizontal too quickly," warns Paget. "There's plenty of time to be sexual so don't let that cloud your heart and your thinking. Too often because people already have that intimacy established they return there before they have properly assessed if the rematch should occur."

5. Work on yourself.
"I was in love with my boyfriend, and he was in love with all of his guy friends," says Madeleine, 33. "His motto was 'bros before hos.' I walked out on him and I told him to not contact me and to leave me alone until he came to his senses."

Instead of trying to lure her man back Madeleine focused on improving her own circumstances. "I decided to leave our hometown. I started looking at grad schools and then apartments. Within a few weeks I was enrolled in school and had secured a lease."

Madeleine won her man back by showing him just what he was missing—and that her life was moving on without him. "Within six months he proposed. We live back in our hometown and now have two beautiful children."

6. Make a statement.
If you try the above and still can't seem to win him back, you may have to make a grand gesture. The grand gesture is the pull-out-all-the-stops, hold-a-boom-box-up-to-his-bedroom-window last chance for love. You have the advantage of knowing this guy well, so play into the way he communicates. If he's an intellectual guy, write him a letter spilling all your feelings for him. If he's the more physical type, show up at his door in a raincoat with a black bra and panty set underneath. (And if all else fails, bake him brownies. No guy can resist 'em.)

Second Time's A Charm

So assuming you get your guy back, how do you ensure that things will be different the second time around? For starters, don't get angry at him about the other women he dated while you two were "on a break."

"Be aware you both will have had other experiences after things ended." Paget says. "Don't expect it to be the same playing field – it's not."

"I think for the most part the breakup is behind us," says Angela, who is still going strong with Chris. "It still irks me sometimes to think that during those few months apart there were other girls in his life, but there were other guys in mine too so I can't complain."

Angela and Chris successfully reunited because they started with a clean slate. "We had time for questions, and we talked about everything and reassured each other that the time apart allowed us to realize we wanted to be with each other, not with other people," she says.

Once you're reunited, turn your gaze inward from time to time. "Remember, you learn plenty about the other person in a relationship but who you really learn about is YOU," says Paget. "Make it better the second time by learning from your mistakes." Ask yourself: Are you making your partner an important part of your life? Are you taking him or her for granted?
"Be the partner you would want to be involved with," says Fulbright.

Getting back together with an ex can be healthy—as long as you're both happy. "Any relationship is unhealthy if it doesn't make you feel good," Paget says.

Thursday, May 28, 2009


im so stress...
i'm overwhelming over something which i cant assure
it would happen or it would remain as a fairytale...
the worst part is when you already got hold of something
but it's too easy to slip out of the hands...
and the question is how to avoid from loosing it?...

ya Allah, give me strength to overcome the situation...
it's something ive wanted from long time ago...
i don't want to blow the chance...
Ive made an effort about it...
i can't just lose it...
it's my future...
its my dream...

In no matter what,i want it happen desperately...
yeah its easy to dream...
ya allah, murahkan lah rezekiku...

papa,mama,baby......thanx for being supportive....
i love you guys so much...
gosh,im in tears...
i just can't help it...
tonite fill with gloomy mood...

btw, i promise if i could get hold of it, i wont waste it...
may my worries today worthwhile at the end...

"Once you choose hope, anything's possible." -Christopher Reeve

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Break-up Advise

Break-ups are unavoidable unless both parties know deep down that the relationship will last forever. As hard as it can get, breaking up is part of life. There are times in a relationship that a person feels that he/she is not happy anymore. There are also other reasons that can include family matters, life problems, financial problems, and even conflict of interests.But whatever the reason may be, we should always prepare ourselves from this kind of situation. The best preparation however, is caution. It is better to caution ourselves from ever triggering the "break-up" lines as much as possible. We can do this by just becoming worthy partners to our loved ones.

*Article from 101 how to avoid unwanted breakup

Lame Break-up, petty reasons.
Most couples who argue always end up in break-ups. They thought this is a nice and challenging way to have the relationship. They break-up because the guy did not like her new hairdo. They break-up because the girl is pissed off because he is late. These are all lame break-ups because the reasons are all petty and very childish.

When you are into a relationship, make an effort to at least learn and improve yourself towards the person you are in love with. Do not test your partner's love for you by breaking up with him or her. This is not the kind of love you should be giving and it is so unselfish if you are acting this way toward your partner. If you can avoid breaking-up for petty reasons, then you are going into a relationship that will last long.

A question of happiness.
One of the most used break-up reason is "I am not happy anymore". This is true. You should be able to ask yourself if your partner is happy with you or if you are happy with your partner. Are you staying together just for showing your friends you are good as a couple, but really you are not happy? By clarifying this issue with your partner, you have a better view of where your relationship is going.

There is always a reason for everything.
When your partner is breaking up with you, ask him or her the reasons why. But if it is you who is doing the break-up, make sure you have your concrete reasons. Prepare yourself to give him/her the reasons why you are not anymore interested to commit. Do not ever walk out of your partner without even saying the reasons. Be just and fair.

No dates after the break-up.
Dating is not good when you recently had a break-up. You do not want to confuse yourself if you really like the person you are dating or you are just making excuses to feel better. In addition, you may also hurt your date's feelings by making him/her your rebound guy or girl. Give yourself time to heal the wounds. There is always time for everything. You can call your friends to comfort you if you really want to seek help of someone. If you have eased the pain of your break-up, you know you are prepared to see someone new again.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Cheeky Day

I dunno..i kept smiling all day long.i smiled as wide as monkey smile (just like pic above)..haha..Its all thanx to hunny bunny chichiness for making my life as bright as the sun =D.wohoooooo..i realized, wen i wrote about something's only a temporary feeling.Im glad after few things have changed, my life's getting better and happier.its all after he clarified 'things'.Im grateful for what i had in my life.i dun want to change it..i have great accompany. =X. and most important thing he loves me and i love him.

P/S: i loved your morning SMS today ...sweet like choc.thanx bby.

Monday, April 13, 2009

Spill Out Straight From The Heart

i am a ferocious woman and heartless,i guess there's nothing special about me to be proud of.perhaps egoistic makes me win the titles.but when it comes to relationship,i lose.i become a lovable person.see,how complicated i am to be Fatrisha Yussof.The dark and angel side are equal.Anyway,i am not attracted to new guys and dun give a fuck of those flirtatious act.Frankly,i am confuse.i cry a lot than laugh now.i wish there is no word of hurt or feeling hurt exist.right now i have many wish than before.i wish i could say things to express my inner feeling rather than crying.i used to be the 'princess'.i miss the greatest, i confronted with too many words of 'depends' and 'buts'.Sometimes I'm tired of the feeling but i hold back because of the responsibility.i believe fortune favors the brave.i hate the word losing and even worst the failure because i dunno how to deal with it but i prefer the word improving or 'workout' because it has always lead to positive consequences.i forgive and forget.'if i were a boy' is the song that i dedicated to all man in the world.if Ive been given a chance to say words to lovebirds i would say "Love and appreciate your partner before its gone because when u try to reach them back.its not going to be the same.then you'll realize how much ure losing.".Currently, i am learning of words growing-up because i want to make decision like an adult.i don't want to make mistake that i will regret forever.Hey people dun get me wrong,im not single or being dumped out.i am still HIS fav gf..everything i wrote up there is coming from my heart and need to spill it out.well u can be the judges.

P/s: i miss my you miss me? =(..

Sunday, March 22, 2009

You fall,You fail.

yes, im a crybaby but im not easily to fall because im fear of failing.
yes, im a crybaby but that doesnt mean im weak.
so keep on moving.Fat.

p/s:miss him..

Friday, March 20, 2009

Dear Him,

For real,I don't know what makes me love u endlessly,but i just do!
love you chilel,Don't fail me to love by days the love feeling is stronger but sometimes it could be fragile.keep me like u taking care of a glass from me you always.


Vice Versa

i need you to listen but not barking,
i need you to be there but not making reason,
i need you to comfort but not annoyed.
vice versa,
you need me to listen and i always lend my ears,
you need me to be there and i always be there,
you need me to comfort and i always convince.

or maybe i just cry for the moon?
Today,im fucking sad.
i terrify of tonnes assignment.monday is a presentation day.
but thats not the major that bloody messed me.hah.whatever.
In sum, Im Fucked up.Mother 'F'.Ugh.

Saturday, February 21, 2009

You Stole My Precious

I'm so happy today.i had a great moment for today's outing.i swear i want to go out with cici again rite now.hukhuk...Anyway,we went to Bukit Bintang for window shopping,flooded our stomachs with delicious food,and karaoke-ing..i missed the karaoke-ing part..i like the way he sang,it sounds good =D and to the climax, i sang a song 'how do i live' by leann rymes.At first,it went well but almost at the end of the song my voice start to tremble,my eyes watery and finally tears burst out.he noticed and pulled me close to him "dah jangan nangis,im with you..".its 2minutes touching moment.Perhaps,im too terrify of losing someone and the song was just like begging him to be with me,dun leave me and bla bla..well yeah,i mite be leaving soon after graduation(insyallah).I guess that is the reason why I was in too emotional..lucky me,he understand.yelaahhhh Libra kan..sensitif lebiy jer..haha..btw,if one day u(cici)read my blog, keep this word in mind that i love you soooooo mush.Heart you internally and externally.You stole my precious heart.mwax..

How Do I Live -lyric-

How do I
Get through one night without you
If I had to live without you
What kind of life would that be?
Oh I, I need you in my arms
Need you to hold
Your my world my heart my soul
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything good in my Life.

Without you
There'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life
There would be no world left for me
And I
Baby I don't know what I would do
I'd be lost if I lost you
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything real in My life

And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I
How do I
Oh how do I live?...

If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything
Need you with me
Baby cuz you know your everything good in My life

And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I
How do I
Oh how do I live

How do I live without you
How do I live without you baby.......
How do I live....

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Another Weird Day

Today fill with gloomy mood.
I keep wondering,
I walk back n forth,
I sit,
AND I wondering again,
i guess im scared.
i start to feel more tense now.
*tsk tsk*
if i got the guts to smash all the things in my room,
i would love to do that.
to be honest i feel so weird....
FUCK it.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Appreciate Sumone

"just apreciate wat u've got b4 its gone...bak kate org u dnt knw wat u've got till its gone" -qilla

Saturday, January 31, 2009

Talk till U satisfy


Why BOYCOTT US goods?

just now i did browse a blog about boycott US goods...the peoples who gave comments for the page is against boycott..but i did reply them u guys agree with me?..its very i guess malaysian should understand =)

"mmg lah kita tak mampu untuk least dengan menunjukkan sedkit keprihatinan dengan tidak membeli brgan US adalah satu yg bagus..ia juga memberi manfaat kepada brgan malaysia....hanya kesedaran memboikot itu mungkin kita akan menjadi tidak fanatik kepada barangan US.mungkin kita masih lagi menggunakan barangan US..tapi cukuplah sekadar hanya keperluan...kerana kita masih lagi jauh ketinggalan untuk mencipta sesuatu yg di luar jangkaan..mungkin kita sendiri patut lebih belajar dan mempunyai sikap untuk lebih kreatif dan inovatif...sememangnya ia akan memberi impak kepda ekonomi malaysia jika kita memboikot secara keseluruhan.tapi bak kata dr Mahatir.BOIKOT SECARA TERANCANG.itu maksudnya...bukan untuk menjadi hipokrit..tapi kita masih boleh lakukan sesuatu..takkanla nak tgk israel atau US serang negara arab je.kita perlukan sesuatu...mungkin presiden obama juga nmpk impak dari membedil negara arab islam itu..ditambah pula rakyat memboikot...kita mesti bangkit...tidaklah hanya duduk diam tidak membuat sesuatu.DR MAHATHIR adalah seorang yang bijak.beliau tahu apa yg beliau rasakan betul.....klu mengikut sejarah pun..orang yahudi atau sebangsa dengannya sume mula mencipta kerana org islam.mereka ingin berjaya seperti spt org islam dahulu kala.dan hasil nye mereka berjaya mengatasi orang islam.mengapa dahulu orang yahudi dan sebangsa dengannya tidak memboikot ilmu islam? kenapa diorang hiporkrit? jawapannya KERANA KEPERLUAN UNTUK BELAJAR.jadi mengapa tidak kita sendiri "reverse the situation"..biarla barangan US itu hanya keperluan dan dalam masa yang sama kita mula bergerak maju untuk mengatasi mereka ini..fikirkanlah....-insan yang masih muda tapi masih boleh berfikir secara logik-

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Silent Killer


kenapa ngn aku nih...haihhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Happy Anniversary,Happy New Year

first of all, i wanna let u know that i really love you and i cant afford to lose you.The love you offer me is one of a happy finally we have reach 1 year and hopefully we will still together in many years to come.Thank you coz making me
believe that ure the one.

i need you,
i need u now,
i need u tomorrow ,
i need u Forever.

I promise you,I will never let you go.and you dun let me go.
Just please dont ever change your ways coz my loyalty will forever be the same,
and my honesty will be my second name!.You inspire me, for real, you do! Baby forever, I will always love you.Happy anniversary.